Advice for newcomers: No matter what you go through, no matter what your cancer is, or your plan of action for treatment, you will always find your strength even on your darkest days. Whether it be the tiniest bit of light or even a slight smile. You got this, you will make it there.
Boobs! What a love hate relationship! November 2020 at 31 I was told I had stage 3 triple positive breast cancer. I thought it was a joke there’s no way I have cancer I’m too young this can’t be my life!
I just went through a seven-year journey to get my miracle baby there’s no way this is my life. After a second opinion it was confirmed I had to deal with it I had cancer. Strap up my gloves and about to fight all over again I was just becoming not exhausted from my last fight but as a woman, a mother, you don’t have a choice you find your strength and you power through.
After the worst chemo I’ve ever been through I was so happy come April. I was done with chemo. I was done, so I thought. June had finally arrived- in that month cutting out the cancer and getting new boobs! I was excited reconstruction was always something I thought of after breast-feeding and having mom boobs. I underwent a double mastectomy with reconstruction all in one day. I knew it was gonna be a tough recovery but I’m a tough chick. Again, I thought I was done but my body had different plans. I came to find out after waking up from surgery I had more cancer cells that had appeared.
Right from the get-go my right breast had given me nothing but problems and I underwent surgery yet again for an infection and to put drains in. That lasted for a few weeks, and then again I went under to be reopened up, cleaned out, and closed up. Now thinking I must be really done … but no, now a hole had developed in my incision and I am currently waiting to go in for yet another surgery to completely take out my right implant. Waking up from surgery and looking at my body was one of the hardest things I had to go through it wasn’t something I ever wanted to do again but for my next upcoming surgery I’m just excepting my scars and the new ones. I will start chemotherapy again afterward. Cancer shouldn’t be sugarcoated it’s hard, everything about it.
As a very strong woman I had to learn that it’s OK to not be OK. It’s OK to show your emotions. It’s OK to ask for help.
I still get uncomfortable, close to an ego, that I can do everything myself. Cancer’s opened up a whole new world for me and I’m looking forward to when it’s done.